Chapter 192: Tears of Regret
” The answer is: the wall said, I’ll meet you at the corner. Hahahaha ” Dandan said and began to laugh loudly at her own joke.
” Haha, that was a good one. ” Wang Jia faked a laugh, she felt terrible as she pretended to laugh, it was a feeling like someone had put a knife to your throat and you can’t do anything but comply.
If not for the reason that she needs Dandan’s help, Jia wouldn’t have even wasted a second of her time with her.
How could she even smile when her Jin had disappeared, with the same plastered smile and a small chuckle she asked again.
” Haha Then, will you help me now- ” her words got stuck in her throat as her eyes landed on the figure that stood some distance away, and her smile disappeared.
Wang Jia saw her son standing in the same clothes she had last seen him wearing, they looked a little dirty, but there were no injuries on his body.
It took several moments for her to register what was happening, at first she wondered if it was just one of her illusions, then a thought came to her mind, ‘ Jin is fine, he returned. ‘
Just as she thought this Jia felt ecstatic, all of her worries disappeared instantly, a beautiful smile appeared on her face, without even herself noticing it.
Even the blockage she was feeling in her cultivation began to loosen up, she had been always dreaming of the moment she could reunite with him, and now that she finally saw him, Jia was too stunned to even move.
As the reality sank in, Jia exclaimed loudly she just wanted to run to him and hug him tightly, to feel his body warmth, his scent, and never let go of him again so that he’d always stay with her.
Then she took a few steps forward with the thought of embracing Jayden, but just as she saw his expression, her steps halted.
For a few seconds, she wondered why he was making that kind of face, he looked disappointed, betrayed and someone who was about to give up on something precious.
Then she thought of the entire situation from his perspective, he had just returned and found his mother laughing and chatting with her friend, not only was she not trying to search him but he couldn’t see even an ounce of worry on her face.
She knew he must have misunderstood the entire situation and was probably thinking that she don’t care about him at all and have abandoned him.
But what could she say, she is standing in the sect and not searching in the forests, thinking this she felt that she had made the wrong choice earlier.
” Jin, I- ” Jia wanted to explain everything, but she was interrupted by Jayden.
” It’s alright, you seem busy. I just wanted to let you know that I’ve returned safely, it’s nothing significant you can continue with your discussion.
IT MUST BE PRETTY IMPORTANT. ” Jayden said, especially highlighting his last words.
Then he turned around and without giving a second glance to her, began to walk away.
Wang Jia’s body trembled, and her heart seemed to have stopped, she couldn’t believe she would just lose him after meeting her son in such a long time.
She was really, really happy that he had returned safely, to her it felt as if all her worries had disappeared and she had obtained what she had always desired, even her cultivation was about to break through to the next realm because of how happy and light her heart felt.
But looking at his back, Jia felt that she had failed him even in the last chance he had given her, all his life she had been so terrible to him, and in the end, she did the same thing again, she hurt him.
Seeing his clothes, she guessed he came to meet her just after returning to the sect, Jia couldn’t even imagine how terrible he must have felt after seeing her just laughing without a care in the world.
Ignoring Dandan, Jia slowly began to follow him she couldn’t figure out how she could explain everything to him, she couldn’t just say, ‘ I returned to the sect after searching for you for a few days. ‘ since this would make it look like the sect is more important to her than her son.
‘ So what, if the entire sect was destroyed? So what, if some of the disciples and elders were killed? Nothing matters more than having Jin with me, I was a fool to get swayed by those vile old men, I’ll make all of them suffer for this, especially that third elder. ‘
She made a resolve to herself, the thought of parting with Jin was much more painful to her than having her sect crumble to pieces.
She followed him all the way to his house, and then she remembered, that someone had destroyed his old house, Jia tried to find who had done it, but she couldn’t find out anything in the end.
She saw him standing in front of his broken house and after staring at it for a few minutes, he sat down on the pile of broken walls. He looked into the sky, there was no expression on his face.
Wang Jia couldn’t just stand and watch while he leaves her, so she slowly walked in front of him, she extended her trembling hand to touch his face as she spoke: ” Jin, p-please listen to me, it’s not like what you think I was just trying to- ”
” It doesn’t matter, you don’t have to explain anything, I understand that every person has their priorities.
I know, you never wanted me, I know you have always despised me and although you can’t kill me yourself but to you it doesn’t matter if others tortured me to death. I understand, so please stop, I just don’t want to listen to your hollow words anymore. ” Jayden said, turning his face away.
Jia’s hand halted in mid air, every word he just said made her feel as if her heart was being pierced by a sword, tears filled her eyes and her head began to buzz as each word of his, echoed in her mind.
She also noticed that he didn’t acknowledge her like he did previously, he didn’t address her as mom or mother and not even as Matriarch, it was as if he was talking to a complete stranger, no it was even worse than that, it was like he is in front of a person he never wish to see.
Two tears rolled down Jia’s pale face, she bit her lip tightly and clenched her fists until her finger nails dug into her skin. She felt her legs losing all the strength, as she sat down on the rubble too.
Wang Jia regretted everything she have done to him, she always turned a blind eye whenever anyone bullied him. The thought of him suffering has always made her feel good, but all of those actions were haunting her now.
He still loved her despite everything she had done to him, and now in the end because of her own decision, she is going to lose him.
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