Ch. 72: The Essence Of Trust
Faced with the delusion that I had the situation under control whereas that was not true . I had no power whatsoever over what was going on.
I ran my hand down the delicate covers of the black book as if beckoning it for an answer, a way out of my current predicament. I came to the resolve that solving the problem of the next calamity would be the key to it all. But could I trust Talos with my secret, she could as well be exploiting me for her own agenda.
I had a problem trusting others though I had never once admitted it to myself, people— no friends, I never understood the concept of it. Putting your life into the hands of others, it was something I could never do.
“HADES!!” Hecate’s scream came rushing into my mind at the moment causing me to bow my head where I sat on the wooden chair, she knew I was not who I claimed to be from start and still she trusted me with her life. She died for me knowing, she trusted me like a friend, why? Hermes also did the same, he died to save me. And Eris too, she risked everything to help me who she knew nothing about.
How can people be so trusting? Its infuriating, I was always surrounded by liers and cheaters. I never learned to trust others, I would rather manipulate them..
The concept of friendship is so foriegn to me. How do I put my trust in others? Why do I put my trust in others.
Talos once said we were the same and the only difference being I was willing to accept people into my life but she was wrong. She came to my aid when I was at my lowest, I would not have done that for her. I only care about people who hold a value to me. Even the Watcher was displeased at how I cast the Hades in the black book aside, why…?
What am I afraid of?
Am I afriad of being betrayed again, it hurts when you try to love someone and then get stabbed in the heart. I know that feeling. My wife left me with nothing and I lost all hope in life, I idolized Greek mythology for it’s splendor and wonderful storytelling. In retrospect I think I realized how much it was similar to my life, a raging war, a conflict of emotions. Why was I chosen to be reborn? I hate myself for being born, I don’t think I even lived the life I was given.
This life gave me another chance to change who I was and love myself but I kept doing the same thing as my old world and manipulate others to my will. I am no god, I’m a human. That’s all I am deep down. A rotten human lost and alone.
“You’re not alone…” I pried my eyes open and gazed at the black book, at times it talks to me but it’s rare. It mostly responds to me through words.
When Hermes died I felt something, when Hecate died I felt the same thing. I don’t think I cared about them much before they died so what changed.
I exhaled sharply. I think ive figured it out now, the reason why someone like me could not hope to trust others was because I had failed to acknowledge the trust they had put in me and it took their deaths for me to realize it. When Hecate and Hermes died I saw their faces, they died happy, they trusted in me.
If they can trust a rotten old man I can at least do the same to others. They opened my heart to hope again. To think it had taken me this damn long to recognize that, I am such a lost cause.
“Fine, I will tell you what you want to know Talos.” I had to trust again, I can’t let their deaths go in vain. “Every damn thing and in exchange you’ll help me save this damn world.”
In a quick flash Talos had pulled her seat to my side and sat next to me. “Really?” She eyes me with questioning eyes.
“Haa~ I won’t tell you everything though just a huge chunk till I’m sure I can really trust you. That okay by you?” I said in a straight voice.
“Seems fair.” She nodded and responded sharply.
And then I started the narration of how I was reborn starting from when I close to be reborn as Hades, I did not relay the message of the watcher but I did tell her about the part of the calamities and why I had to avoid them. Talos was surprisingly more quiet than usual, Hermes ln the other hand wpuld have an expression to give at almost every turn.
And finally I came to a conclusion with a large sigh. “So that’s the gist of it I guess. And I seriously need your help on the matter.”
Hermes beamed with excitement. “Time travel huh, that is so cool. Breaking the confines of times and space like *back to the future*, or terminator something like that right? This is huuuuge.”
“That aside I’m not used to asking for help but I desperately need your help if I am to avoid this Calamity from destroying the world.” I turned to face Talos who bit at her nails and looked at me with a side glance.
She parted her lips to speak and closed it shortly after putting me in a bit of suspense. A moment later she spoke. “Technically you are sort of commanding than asking, get the concept right.”
“You knew about the Trojan War before it even occured, so does that mean you know of the true future of this world or just set events. From what you said this world is more advanced than the one from your stories meaning either this world is an alteration of your stories or our world had been improved upon by some external force. There are many possibilities to the matter.”
Her head really does run like a circuit of wires, it was like she had prepared for whatver shock my words would bring beforehand.
I sensed her energy spike up, did she figure something out.
“Have you perhaps thought of the possibility of why you were able to master this world?” What was she aiming at now. “What if you weren’t really chosen to come to this world but you instead opened the rift yourself.”
“Then what would that make me….?” I asked calmly.
She shit me a strong glance and said. “A god!!”
If I revive a magic castle I will mass release 10 chapters
