Chapter 117: Regret
“N-No, please spare us,” the people started screaming. But Ning didn’t care. He was already in the mood of killing and didn’t see any problems with killing a few more people.
“Well, I can’t help it. They know who I am, so they need to go,” Ning said with clear blood lust in his eyes.
The men were still screaming for mercy when Ning rose his spear.
“Sorry system. They gotta go this time. It’s nothing personal.”
Ning didn’t listen to anything and in a single sweep of his spear launched a powerful Air Cutter and killed all 4 people at once.
As soon as the bodies dropped, Ning heard another set of notifications.
Suddenly, Ning felt like everything went dark. He lost more than half of his senses and what remained were barely enough to make him feel that he could still see and feel things.
Emotions started budding up inside him that he hadn’t felt since the day after he was woken up from the 164-year slumber and learned that everyone might have died already.
Despair and Fear flared inside him as he lost all functions of his body and fell to the ground.
“No!!” he screamed out loud, but no one was there to care for him. “Stop this, System!” he shouted. “Stop it right now!” but there was no answer.
“System, answer me!” he screamed out. But once more, there was no answer.
Another fear popped up in his heart. The system was gone and he was alone.
“Just like all of them. You left me too,” He started shouting. “No one stays behind with me. Why, System, Why? Where are you? Come back please!”, he continued shouting.
However, no matter how much he screamed in fear and despair, there was no answer to reassure him anymore. No answer to tell him it was okay. No answer to tell him it was alright.
The logical part of him knew that just as the system said, it was temporary. After some more time, it would return back.
But the fear and despair that were amplified by the system prior to leaving was too much for him to handle.
He held his head in his arms and crept into a fetal position. Tears streamed down his eyes as he begged the system to stop all the emotions, but it didn’t.
The feeling that 4 different people had felt just prior to their deaths, and the feeling of someone else close to him leaving him behind one more time, all of these feelings amplified to the limit was too much for him to handle.
He started hyperventilating and soon was shivering.
Night came by, yet Ning didn’t get a single free moment without the despair. The inner pain of the dead people kept him awake.
Monsters came at night trying to eat the corpses. But as soon as they heard Ning’s scream, they would run away. The entire night, Ning kept it up until he fell asleep on the cold hard ground at around 4 am.
Late morning, he slowly woke up, feeling as though he had just woken up from a bad dream and the aftertaste still remained. The feeling was still very bad, but he ignored it.
He stood up and looked around. “System are you there?” he asked as he looked at his unusual surrounding, and finally laid his eyes on the half-eaten corpses.
Despair started forming inside him once again. Now that he had come down from the high of enjoyment he had felt when he killed the people, his true self was showing.
Regret was all he could feel. He fell down to his knees as he looked at the four dead people whose corpses hadn’t even remained intact.
“Oh god. I deserve this, don’t I? The system leaving me, me feeling this pain. I deserve it all. Why did I do something like that? Why did I let my anger against that bastard sway my emotions to do this? Since when did I become such a cold-hearted murderer?” he kept asking himself.
Guilt and Regret nearly ate him from the inside. He dropped his head and banged it onto to ground in front of the 4 dead bodies and started screaming “I’m sorry. I’m sorry.”
“I’m sorry. I’m sorry.”
He banged against the ground multiple times, screaming “I’m Sorry” each time. In the end, he simply just cried as he bowed.
After a while, he opened his eyes, determined to do something good at least. He took the spear from nearby and started digging the ground.
It was in the middle of nowhere, but this was the best he could do right now. He dug them up a grave and buried what little body they had left.
After the four corpses were gone, he finally checked himself. He was a sorry mess as expected. There was blood all over his clothes, dirt had stuck to the cloth and even gotten onto his skin.
He took the spear and walked towards the sea. He walked past the tree where he had killed Yacius and looked at where his body should have been.
However, aside from the pool of blood, there was nothing there. Monsters had already gotten to him. However, this brought up absolutely no emotions in Ning.
He kept on walking forward until a light appeared from amongst the foliage. He moved aside the trees with his spear and saw the beautiful blue ocean.
Without hesitation, he started running towards it. He was on a giant cliff, but he cared not, without thinking twice jumped off of the cliff into the deep blue ocean.
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