1393 Melia’s Feelings.
“I need your help.”
Melia spoke with a determined look on her face.
Aeliana tilted her head, her eyes narrowed down as she started observing the Vampire in front of her. Her crimson eyes were shining as she stared at the Vampire child in front of her, it was as if she could read the existence named Melia Leander as a whole.
It was a gaze that would very easily intimidate any being regardless of his cultivation level, Melia was the same, looking at the older Vampire staring at her, she felt her heartbeat quicken and her body tremble nonstop.
In front of this woman, she felt naked. As if all her secrets were completely exposed to her. However, despite feeling the weight of the woman’s gaze, Melia didn’t back down.
With her determination strong, she stared into Aeliana’s crimson eyes. She was prepared to show her vulnerable side to her as long as it meant that she would receive what she wanted.
Maybe it was because she was impressed by her performance or the older Vampire was simply curious, “What is it?” Aeliana questioned.
“I wish to be your disciple,” Melia replied with the same, determined look on her face.
“Oh?” Aeliana raised her eyebrow. It was not just her, Vyriana was the same as she observed the two of them interact. The rest of the women in the room had turned to the two women as well.
“Why do you want that?” Aeliana questioned, curious.
“I do not wish to form an insignificant Law.” The answer was instantaneous.
It was an answer that grabbed the Pseudo Leader’s attention,
“So are you telling me that you could have formed a Law earlier but you simply do not wish to form your Law because it is not up to your standard?”
“No.”
“Hmm?”
“I realize that Law is one’s representation of her own strength. I am unable to form a Law because I believe that I am not prepared to form one yet. I believe that my potential is higher than my current self.
I need help. A guide, someone who can show me ways to improve myself and help me form a Law that I am worthy of.
And I can’t imagine anyone else but you being able to assist me.”
Melia replied honestly, she still remembered the words Faustina said to her and started thinking. After a thorough introspection, she finally realized why she couldn’t form her Law.
She felt inferior.
Seeing how every woman around her was able to form her Law as if it was the easiest thing in the world intimidated her.
She knew Nux was a Monster, when the man fought and defeated her, she already knew that the chances of her being able to surpass him in the future were close to nil, however, soon, she realized that it wasn’t just Nux, all the women around him were the same as well.
They were all a bunch of monsters with learning speeds far higher than anyone she had ever met.
Yes, she realized that their cultivation was ‘given’ to them, honestly, when she learned about dual cultivation, she somewhat looked down upon these women.
After all, the women she believed to be geniuses all turned out to be hollow boards who had received everything they had and didn’t have to work for a thing, soon however, she realized how wrong she was.
She realized that despite ‘receiving’ their cultivation from someone else, the fact that these women were all a bunch of monsters couldn’t be more apparent. Taking different trials, gaining Bloodlines never before seen bloodlines, attracting the attention of the Organization that never paid any attention to them despite them being one of the ‘world leaders’.
It was as if these women lived in a completely different world compared to others.
And once again, these women proved themselves when they started forming their Laws one by one within just a few years of learning their existence.
Heck, one of them formed her Law even before realizing what the damn thing was.
Melia, who was one of the most talented descendants of the Bloodhearts, someone whose talent and potential surpassed everyone around her, for the first time in her entire life, she felt what it was like to be… normal.
In a group where everyone constantly broke so-called ‘limitations’ and ‘exceeded all expectations’ like it was nothing, she felt alone.
And that feeling only strengthened when one by one, all her ‘sisters’ started forming their laws.
Yes, she was affected, she was jealous.
First, it was the Bloodlines.
When she ‘joined’ the harem, all the women had a lower level bloodline compared to her, now however, her Bloodline level was the lowest.
Now, it was the Laws.
Everyone started forming their Laws, two of her Sisters formed Laws so strong that even the Progenitors, beings she had never even heard about before, the strongest beings standing at the top of Yrniel, personally came down to recruit them, only to be rejected, The only one who couldn’t form her Law was Felberta, however, she was then dubbed as a genius that surpassed everyone by one of the said Progenitors and now, the Mother of all Humans wants her as a disciple.
Melia wasn’t blind, neither was she a fool, she could tell what would be the outcome of Felberta being accepted by Faustina and learning that new technique would be.
And this was what pulled the trigger.
She hated to admit it, however, in the entire group, the only woman she felt she was… superior to was Felberta.
After all, just like her, she was unable to form her Law and even though she was talented, she never stood out compared to others. Even Edda, Skyla and Allura, these women, although not in a way she would want to, stood out in one way or another, Felberta, however, blended back in, just like her.
However, knowing that even that woman is going to form her Law and probably surpass her… made Melia feel even worse.
Yes, she knew that whatever she was feeling was wrong.
She knew that she shouldn’t think like this for a woman she considers her family.
After all, the last thing she wanted is for tensions to rise, which, definitely would if Felberta knew of her feelings, however, despite all this, as someone who was used to being better than others and was now one of the ‘inferior’ ones… Melia couldn’t help but think that way.
She may not show it to anyone, even hiding everything from Nux, the man she trusted with her life. After all, these feelings weren’t something she wanted him to know and… being in his presence made her forget these feelings because deep down, she knew, Nux never cared.
Yes, he wanted his women to be strong, but that’s it.
He didn’t care if his women didn’t wish to train or get strong.
Take Edda and Allura as an example, the two women hardly cared about getting strong but even then, Nux didn’t treat them any differently.
Yes, she spoiled his women and that was because he knew, if anything happened, he would be there to protect them no matter what.
In Nux’s eyes, other than his wife’s security, nothing else mattered. His wives could do whatever they wanted to do because they were his wives. They should be spoiled as much as possible, as for the working hard part, He would handle everything.
His wives deserved the world and he would give it to them.
Melia knew this all too well. Nux never fails to communicate his feelings, especially when they spend time together alone doing the… perverted things.
However, despite knowing all this, Melia still felt the way she did.
After all, when all was said and done, Melia was still a woman whose existence revolved around being ‘strong’.
She craved power.
At first, she wished to create a Clan as strong as her Bloodheart Family, now, even when she was a part of a Clan that was much more superior, her craving for power didn’t die down.
She wanted to be better.
She wanted to be stronger.
She wanted to surpass everyone around her and despite all her efforts, she still couldn’t do it. The people around her were simply too monstrous.
She felt inferior.
She felt miserable.
She felt weak.
And…
Realizing all her feelings after a long, deep introspection, Melia understood why she couldn’t form her Law.
Because of constantly comparing herself with others, she stopped progressing. Yes, her cultivation level increased, she became a complete cultivator, she also learned new ‘System Abilities’ that made her stronger than other cultivators of her level, however… In this journey, she lost something much more important.
Her Goal.
Her Confidence.
Her Decisive Self.
She lost it all.
Rather, Melia believed that if it was her past self, forming her Law would have been much simpler.
And after realizing all this, Melia finally made a decision.
A decision to change herself.
A decision to have a goal, once again.
A goal to surpass, not the women around her, but her husband.
A goal to surpass Nux Leander.
An arrogant goal, just like the one she had before and this time, rather than comparing herself with others, she will continue to improve her own self to the point where she will reach the absolute best version of herself.
The version that even Nux cannot surpass.
To do that, she needed someone who could help her achieve her goals and that ‘someone’ was currently standing right in front of her.
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